I’ll Take A Breath, I’ll Take Her By My Side We Stand In Awe, We’ve Created Life

With little E's birthday yesterday and Z's coming up next week, it's really been hitting a chord I didn't even know I had. I want another baby. My kids are growing up and soon I'll have a 4 & 7 year old in my house and I won't even be able to pretend I have… Continue reading I’ll Take A Breath, I’ll Take Her By My Side We Stand In Awe, We’ve Created Life

Through It All We Will Remain In This Life We All Know Friends May Come They May Go Through The Years I Know I Will Stay

Some of you have asked why I even bother with K anymore like writing to him etc. K has been there for me in ways I can't even explain, but I'll give you a few examples. One simple time that crosses my mind was once when I got high, and we were on the phone.… Continue reading Through It All We Will Remain In This Life We All Know Friends May Come They May Go Through The Years I Know I Will Stay

Take Me To Church I’ll Worship Like A Dog At The Shrine Of Your Lies

So after K got sent back, I had a little falling out with my mother. I was emotional and needed someone to talk to and you'd think by now I'd have learned that that person should never be my judgemental mom but deep down inside I still want to have a open and good relationship… Continue reading Take Me To Church I’ll Worship Like A Dog At The Shrine Of Your Lies

If I Got Locked Away And We Lost it All Today Tell Me Honestly, Would You Still Love Me The Same?

He called.  Finally. Right in the middle of my Canada Day family gathering with everyone over at my place. On a line where I could barely hear anything, but it didn't matter because he called.  So I can put to rest some imaginary situations my very active mind had thought up in the last few… Continue reading If I Got Locked Away And We Lost it All Today Tell Me Honestly, Would You Still Love Me The Same?

I Can See Clearly Now the Rain is Gone

Fuck me? Because I showed you a part of you that you don't want to believe?  Fuck me? Because you know I'm right and you're scared that I know you so well?  Fuck me? Because your worried how you felt about my opinion bothered you so much?  Fuck me? Because you know you wanted to… Continue reading I Can See Clearly Now the Rain is Gone

I’m Not a Pawn for You to Play in Your Fucking Game I’ve Got Dignity and a Dream That I Want to Achieve/All I Hear are Your Empty Promises

A while back I watched a show and the episode was titled Pros Vs. Cons and when I saw that, I literally laughed out loud.  It summed up my life in so many ways so perfectly. Yes, I am the queen of pro/con lists... whenever faced with an issue I think out all the good… Continue reading I’m Not a Pawn for You to Play in Your Fucking Game I’ve Got Dignity and a Dream That I Want to Achieve/All I Hear are Your Empty Promises

If Your Not the One for Me Why do I Hate the Idea of Being Free/Why Have We Been Through What We Have Been Through 

Making the best choice for yourself in life is shitty sometimes. Whether it's as simple as eating healthy food vs. a cheeseburger or cutting out people who you feel aren't the best for you in order to make room for someone who will help you grow better. Both aren't fun, but the "friend" option is… Continue reading If Your Not the One for Me Why do I Hate the Idea of Being Free/Why Have We Been Through What We Have Been Through 

Your Life Ain’t Gonna be Nothing Like My Life, Your Gonna Grow and Have a Good Life. I’m Gonna do What I Got to do. 

Last night at dinner, little E nearly broke my heart, which as we've previously determined is hard to do lol. I mentioned to the kids that on Sunday I invited my Dad (and by association my Mom) out for lunch for Father's Day, and asked them if they had any suggestions of where they'd like… Continue reading Your Life Ain’t Gonna be Nothing Like My Life, Your Gonna Grow and Have a Good Life. I’m Gonna do What I Got to do. 

And You Can’t Stop Me From Falling Apart

I refuse to watch 13 Reasons Why. As someone who has attempted suicide myself, on more than one occasion, and obviously failed (self high-five), I don't feel I need to know someone else's reasoning behind killing themselves. Do I think it's a good show for people to watch who have never experienced suicidal tendencies? Sure… Continue reading And You Can’t Stop Me From Falling Apart

So What We Go Out. That’s How It’s Supposed to be. Living Young and Wild and Free

Friday night, my kids spent the night at my parents house. Which was the first time in a while that I had the night off (like you all know from my Mother's Day rant). So originally I had plans for May 19th, but as with life, plans change. So I ended up going out with… Continue reading So What We Go Out. That’s How It’s Supposed to be. Living Young and Wild and Free