I Can See Clearly Now the Rain is Gone

Fuck me? Because I showed you a part of you that you don't want to believe?  Fuck me? Because you know I'm right and you're scared that I know you so well?  Fuck me? Because your worried how you felt about my opinion bothered you so much?  Fuck me? Because you know you wanted to… Continue reading I Can See Clearly Now the Rain is Gone

I’m Not a Pawn for You to Play in Your Fucking Game I’ve Got Dignity and a Dream That I Want to Achieve/All I Hear are Your Empty Promises

A while back I watched a show and the episode was titled Pros Vs. Cons and when I saw that, I literally laughed out loud.  It summed up my life in so many ways so perfectly. Yes, I am the queen of pro/con lists... whenever faced with an issue I think out all the good… Continue reading I’m Not a Pawn for You to Play in Your Fucking Game I’ve Got Dignity and a Dream That I Want to Achieve/All I Hear are Your Empty Promises

If Your Not the One for Me Why do I Hate the Idea of Being Free/Why Have We Been Through What We Have Been Through 

Making the best choice for yourself in life is shitty sometimes. Whether it's as simple as eating healthy food vs. a cheeseburger or cutting out people who you feel aren't the best for you in order to make room for someone who will help you grow better. Both aren't fun, but the "friend" option is… Continue reading If Your Not the One for Me Why do I Hate the Idea of Being Free/Why Have We Been Through What We Have Been Through 

Your Life Ain’t Gonna be Nothing Like My Life, Your Gonna Grow and Have a Good Life. I’m Gonna do What I Got to do. 

Last night at dinner, little E nearly broke my heart, which as we've previously determined is hard to do lol. I mentioned to the kids that on Sunday I invited my Dad (and by association my Mom) out for lunch for Father's Day, and asked them if they had any suggestions of where they'd like… Continue reading Your Life Ain’t Gonna be Nothing Like My Life, Your Gonna Grow and Have a Good Life. I’m Gonna do What I Got to do. 

And You Can’t Stop Me From Falling Apart

I refuse to watch 13 Reasons Why. As someone who has attempted suicide myself, on more than one occasion, and obviously failed (self high-five), I don't feel I need to know someone else's reasoning behind killing themselves. Do I think it's a good show for people to watch who have never experienced suicidal tendencies? Sure… Continue reading And You Can’t Stop Me From Falling Apart

So What We Go Out. That’s How It’s Supposed to be. Living Young and Wild and Free

Friday night, my kids spent the night at my parents house. Which was the first time in a while that I had the night off (like you all know from my Mother's Day rant). So originally I had plans for May 19th, but as with life, plans change. So I ended up going out with… Continue reading So What We Go Out. That’s How It’s Supposed to be. Living Young and Wild and Free

Are You Afraid of Being Alone Cause I am, I’m Lost Without You

Would I be okay alone? This question has crossed my mind too much recently, and to answer, of course I would be okay. But I wouldn't thrive. You see even when you are in a relationship, you are destined to be alone at some points in your life. Most in fact, but it's the knowledge… Continue reading Are You Afraid of Being Alone Cause I am, I’m Lost Without You

You’re All I See, Our Love’s a Monster with 2 Heads and 1 Heartbeat, We Just Got Caught up in the Moment

So, I told K I couldn't do "it" (more about "it" here: Flaws On the Table, I Don’t Feel Insecure). At least I'm pretty sure I told him... I was high while on the phone, since I knew I couldn't talk about it "on my own".  This was something I honestly would've considered if K and I… Continue reading You’re All I See, Our Love’s a Monster with 2 Heads and 1 Heartbeat, We Just Got Caught up in the Moment

This Thing Turned Out so Evil, Don’t Know Why I’m Still Surprised 

Filing for divorce was not an easy process. I had some time to sort out what I was going to do and how I was going to do it, because E was away at work. He worked at a camp in a remote area so I didn't have to worry about him for a while.… Continue reading This Thing Turned Out so Evil, Don’t Know Why I’m Still Surprised