I Can See Clearly Now the Rain is Gone

Fuck me? Because I showed you a part of you that you don't want to believe?  Fuck me? Because you know I'm right and you're scared that I know you so well?  Fuck me? Because your worried how you felt about my opinion bothered you so much?  Fuck me? Because you know you wanted to… Continue reading I Can See Clearly Now the Rain is Gone

If Your Not the One for Me Why do I Hate the Idea of Being Free/Why Have We Been Through What We Have Been Through 

Making the best choice for yourself in life is shitty sometimes. Whether it's as simple as eating healthy food vs. a cheeseburger or cutting out people who you feel aren't the best for you in order to make room for someone who will help you grow better. Both aren't fun, but the "friend" option is… Continue reading If Your Not the One for Me Why do I Hate the Idea of Being Free/Why Have We Been Through What We Have Been Through 

To Be in Love With Someone Who Could Never Love You

Have you ever been in a relationship or just a friendship where you felt like they were your everything and you were just 'something' to them... at best?  Or where you can't be with them because of dumb or made up reason and you find yourself always having to contain your feelings/emotions for them because… Continue reading To Be in Love With Someone Who Could Never Love You

While You Laughin’ We’re Passin’ Passin’ Away 

Stoic. Heartless. Cold blooded.  Emotionless. Indifferent. Uncaring. Reserved. Nonchalant. Apathetic. Matter of fact. Bitch. All names I've been called in the past that make complete sense to me now.  I received the call today. My grandma passed away a couple of hours ago. And I really, unfortunately don't feel anything towards the situation. And that… Continue reading While You Laughin’ We’re Passin’ Passin’ Away 

Baby Don’t Cry! I Hope You Got Your Head up. 

Friday I went back to the naturopath who's been helping me with my liver. Which I found out is doing better thanks to Dr. K.  Last time I was there, she had recommended a B12 shot that would bypass the digestive system since she'd inject it right in my arm, and I could experience the… Continue reading Baby Don’t Cry! I Hope You Got Your Head up. 

I Remember All the Feelings and the Day They Stopped

Last summer, after I bought my own house (Yeah me!), I fell back into old habits (Boo me). Like they say, old habits die hard. I hadn't slept with anyone since I had left E almost 2.5 years ago, since I had more important things to focus on.  So I was just really wanting that feeling of someone else… Continue reading I Remember All the Feelings and the Day They Stopped

I Don’t Ever Wanna Feel Like I Did That Day, Take Me to the Place I Love, Take Me All the Way

When I was 19, my body was used for the first time in ways that changed me forever. I was really good friends with this one couple A and M.  We worked together, we went out every weekend together partying. I was even planning on moving in with the girl A in a few weeks… Continue reading I Don’t Ever Wanna Feel Like I Did That Day, Take Me to the Place I Love, Take Me All the Way