By Now You Should’ve Somehow Realized What You Gotta do I Don’t Believe that Anybody Feels the Way I Do About You Now

This post is just some odds and ends about everything that's been happening lately. I just don't feel like going to deep into anything because life has been really handing it to me this week, but have I have a lot of quick updates I'd like to share.  My Grandma apparently specified that all the… Continue reading By Now You Should’ve Somehow Realized What You Gotta do I Don’t Believe that Anybody Feels the Way I Do About You Now

I Can See Clearly Now the Rain is Gone

Fuck me? Because I showed you a part of you that you don't want to believe?  Fuck me? Because you know I'm right and you're scared that I know you so well?  Fuck me? Because your worried how you felt about my opinion bothered you so much?  Fuck me? Because you know you wanted to… Continue reading I Can See Clearly Now the Rain is Gone

If Your Not the One for Me Why do I Hate the Idea of Being Free/Why Have We Been Through What We Have Been Through 

Making the best choice for yourself in life is shitty sometimes. Whether it's as simple as eating healthy food vs. a cheeseburger or cutting out people who you feel aren't the best for you in order to make room for someone who will help you grow better. Both aren't fun, but the "friend" option is… Continue reading If Your Not the One for Me Why do I Hate the Idea of Being Free/Why Have We Been Through What We Have Been Through 

To Be in Love With Someone Who Could Never Love You

Have you ever been in a relationship or just a friendship where you felt like they were your everything and you were just 'something' to them... at best?  Or where you can't be with them because of dumb or made up reason and you find yourself always having to contain your feelings/emotions for them because… Continue reading To Be in Love With Someone Who Could Never Love You

And You Can’t Stop Me From Falling Apart

I refuse to watch 13 Reasons Why. As someone who has attempted suicide myself, on more than one occasion, and obviously failed (self high-five), I don't feel I need to know someone else's reasoning behind killing themselves. Do I think it's a good show for people to watch who have never experienced suicidal tendencies? Sure… Continue reading And You Can’t Stop Me From Falling Apart

This Ringing in My Head, Is This a Cure or is This a Disease

AHHH, I'm feeling so lost! For so many reasons, I decided last night I needed to take a break from my phone. So this morning, after my alarm (on my phone) went off, I turned off my phone. Now when I planned this all in my head last night, I figured I could go until… Continue reading This Ringing in My Head, Is This a Cure or is This a Disease

I’m Friends With the Monster That’s Under My Bed. Get Along With the Voices Inside of My Head

Once E was served with divorce papers, he called me freaking out. It took over two months for my lawyer and I to get everything straightened out on paper and all the proper documents filled out, before he was actually notified on April 29, 2014. All the time between my flying back from Kenya and… Continue reading I’m Friends With the Monster That’s Under My Bed. Get Along With the Voices Inside of My Head

I Got a Notion to Say What Doesn’t Feel Right

As it stands now, I hate Mother's Day. This will be my 7th Mother's Day, and I've yet to enjoy a single one. Yes, I've been a single parent for 3 of them already, coming up on my forth this Sunday, and I'm actually dreading it. When married to E, he never understood the whole… Continue reading I Got a Notion to Say What Doesn’t Feel Right

I Remember All the Feelings and the Day They Stopped

Last summer, after I bought my own house (Yeah me!), I fell back into old habits (Boo me). Like they say, old habits die hard. I hadn't slept with anyone since I had left E almost 2.5 years ago, since I had more important things to focus on.  So I was just really wanting that feeling of someone else… Continue reading I Remember All the Feelings and the Day They Stopped

‘Cause I’m Only Human After All 

There has been a lot going on in my life. Well that's obvious for everyone who's been reading my posts so far.  But I'm talking in the here and now life. It's getting to the point where I've been really questioning life in general, and how it works. Like when does "God" or "Karma" or… Continue reading ‘Cause I’m Only Human After All