By Now You Should’ve Somehow Realized What You Gotta do I Don’t Believe that Anybody Feels the Way I Do About You Now

This post is just some odds and ends about everything that's been happening lately. I just don't feel like going to deep into anything because life has been really handing it to me this week, but have I have a lot of quick updates I'd like to share.  My Grandma apparently specified that all the… Continue reading By Now You Should’ve Somehow Realized What You Gotta do I Don’t Believe that Anybody Feels the Way I Do About You Now

They Know I Have No Choice But to Show My Secret Identity 

I get nervous when I look at my stats. Today someONE in Canada has  been really interested in my blog, reading every post I've ever written. And while that would be flattering in any other country, it makes me anxious.  What if it's someone I know? Or who knows me? Who finds my story so… Continue reading They Know I Have No Choice But to Show My Secret Identity 

Promiscuous Girl You’re Teasing Me You Know What I What And I Got What You Need 

K, I originally wrote this yesterday while waiting to meet my friends for lunch, when my whole WordPress crashed and I lost the entire fucking post. I was choked. So sorry if it's not as "good" as normal, but I'm really just moody about having to redo it. 😒.  This morning I met a friend… Continue reading Promiscuous Girl You’re Teasing Me You Know What I What And I Got What You Need 

Your Life Ain’t Gonna be Nothing Like My Life, Your Gonna Grow and Have a Good Life. I’m Gonna do What I Got to do. 

Last night at dinner, little E nearly broke my heart, which as we've previously determined is hard to do lol. I mentioned to the kids that on Sunday I invited my Dad (and by association my Mom) out for lunch for Father's Day, and asked them if they had any suggestions of where they'd like… Continue reading Your Life Ain’t Gonna be Nothing Like My Life, Your Gonna Grow and Have a Good Life. I’m Gonna do What I Got to do. 

Bitch Better Have My Money, Pay Me What You Owe Me

$36,408.00 That's how much E currently owes me in back pay for child support. I've been trying to sort this thing out with my lawyer for what feels like forever now, and I feel like (hopefully) we're nearing the finish line with this whole divorce. To be honest, it could've been much worse than how… Continue reading Bitch Better Have My Money, Pay Me What You Owe Me

I Just Started to See the Light of Day, I Just Started Hating Some People Today

I met my "Dad" again at 14 years old.  It had been close to 10 years since he gave up his visitation rights to R and I, and stopped showing up once a month to drive us down to his house in the next city for the weekend. He also stopped paying child support for the two… Continue reading I Just Started to See the Light of Day, I Just Started Hating Some People Today

And if I Don’t Make it, Know That I Loved You All Along

My Grandma is dying. She was diagnosed less then two months ago with lung cancer that has spread like wild fire into her spine and throughout her body. Chemo was a no go, because the cancer was too far gone, and Radiation has only been recommended to help shrink some of the larger tumours that… Continue reading And if I Don’t Make it, Know That I Loved You All Along

We Are Family, I Got All My Sisters With Me

When I was about 11 I came home from school one day and my mom told me to have a seat at the kitchen table. Immediately all the bad things I had done recently started running through my head based on her tone and I thought I was in for it.  Nothing could've prepared me… Continue reading We Are Family, I Got All My Sisters With Me

There’s Such a Difference Between us, and a Million Miles 

This morning I remembered about a time I was "in love" before W. Do I think you can love more than one person in your life? Yes, we are human and feel emotions for people. But, what I felt for J should probably be classified more as an infatuation or a fling, and because I… Continue reading There’s Such a Difference Between us, and a Million Miles 

We’ve Grown to Close for that, Fuck a Friend Zone I Know I Ain’t Perfect

So last night, K called again (twice but I was busy the first time around) and after he got off the phone as quickly as possible, I realized the call was similar to one I would've had with my mother. "Tell me about your day" "How are the kids" "Oh you need things like this… Continue reading We’ve Grown to Close for that, Fuck a Friend Zone I Know I Ain’t Perfect