By Now You Should’ve Somehow Realized What You Gotta do I Don’t Believe that Anybody Feels the Way I Do About You Now

This post is just some odds and ends about everything that's been happening lately. I just don't feel like going to deep into anything because life has been really handing it to me this week, but have I have a lot of quick updates I'd like to share.  My Grandma apparently specified that all the… Continue reading By Now You Should’ve Somehow Realized What You Gotta do I Don’t Believe that Anybody Feels the Way I Do About You Now

I Can See Clearly Now the Rain is Gone

Fuck me? Because I showed you a part of you that you don't want to believe?  Fuck me? Because you know I'm right and you're scared that I know you so well?  Fuck me? Because your worried how you felt about my opinion bothered you so much?  Fuck me? Because you know you wanted to… Continue reading I Can See Clearly Now the Rain is Gone

Because He Loves You Cheeseburger With All His Heart

This morning little E asked if he could make pancakes for himself and Z for breakfast. I figured no big deal, I had bought some frozen pre-made (fancy I know) pancakes a few weeks ago and they hadn't had a chance to eat them yet. So since Eli normally makes the two of them breakfast he set about popping… Continue reading Because He Loves You Cheeseburger With All His Heart

To Be in Love With Someone Who Could Never Love You

Have you ever been in a relationship or just a friendship where you felt like they were your everything and you were just 'something' to them... at best?  Or where you can't be with them because of dumb or made up reason and you find yourself always having to contain your feelings/emotions for them because… Continue reading To Be in Love With Someone Who Could Never Love You

Your Life Ain’t Gonna be Nothing Like My Life, Your Gonna Grow and Have a Good Life. I’m Gonna do What I Got to do. 

Last night at dinner, little E nearly broke my heart, which as we've previously determined is hard to do lol. I mentioned to the kids that on Sunday I invited my Dad (and by association my Mom) out for lunch for Father's Day, and asked them if they had any suggestions of where they'd like… Continue reading Your Life Ain’t Gonna be Nothing Like My Life, Your Gonna Grow and Have a Good Life. I’m Gonna do What I Got to do. 

Hands Roam, I Turned Him to Gold/Get Drunk on the Good Life/Smoke a Little Weed on the Couch

In grade 11, my parents made the mistake of trusting me home alone for the weekend. They were taking a vacation alone (good for them) and for some reason felt I was mature enough to handle the house on my own. Oh for sure I was... I just choose not to make the best decisions… Continue reading Hands Roam, I Turned Him to Gold/Get Drunk on the Good Life/Smoke a Little Weed on the Couch

Tonight I’mma Let You be the Captain/ Tonight I’mma Let You Take Me Higher

Sir. That's what he told me to call him. Fine with me since I only planned on indulging his desire for the next few hours anyways, and to be honest, I had been expecting something along those lines from the start. I had met Sir through a dating app when he messaged me asking if… Continue reading Tonight I’mma Let You be the Captain/ Tonight I’mma Let You Take Me Higher

I Just Started to See the Light of Day, I Just Started Hating Some People Today

I met my "Dad" again at 14 years old.  It had been close to 10 years since he gave up his visitation rights to R and I, and stopped showing up once a month to drive us down to his house in the next city for the weekend. He also stopped paying child support for the two… Continue reading I Just Started to See the Light of Day, I Just Started Hating Some People Today

Baby Don’t Cry! I Hope You Got Your Head up. 

Friday I went back to the naturopath who's been helping me with my liver. Which I found out is doing better thanks to Dr. K.  Last time I was there, she had recommended a B12 shot that would bypass the digestive system since she'd inject it right in my arm, and I could experience the… Continue reading Baby Don’t Cry! I Hope You Got Your Head up. 

I Can’t Remember Anything, Can’t Tell if This is True or Dream

When I was 16, I woke up one morning at the hospital. The rush of cold air when the ambulances' back door opened made me "come to" and I remember sitting up on the gurney and needing to throw up. The paramedic gave me a tray and the whole arrival emergency crew at the hospital… Continue reading I Can’t Remember Anything, Can’t Tell if This is True or Dream