By Now You Should’ve Somehow Realized What You Gotta do I Don’t Believe that Anybody Feels the Way I Do About You Now

This post is just some odds and ends about everything that's been happening lately. I just don't feel like going to deep into anything because life has been really handing it to me this week, but have I have a lot of quick updates I'd like to share.  My Grandma apparently specified that all the… Continue reading By Now You Should’ve Somehow Realized What You Gotta do I Don’t Believe that Anybody Feels the Way I Do About You Now

I Can See Clearly Now the Rain is Gone

Fuck me? Because I showed you a part of you that you don't want to believe?  Fuck me? Because you know I'm right and you're scared that I know you so well?  Fuck me? Because your worried how you felt about my opinion bothered you so much?  Fuck me? Because you know you wanted to… Continue reading I Can See Clearly Now the Rain is Gone

If Your Not the One for Me Why do I Hate the Idea of Being Free/Why Have We Been Through What We Have Been Through 

Making the best choice for yourself in life is shitty sometimes. Whether it's as simple as eating healthy food vs. a cheeseburger or cutting out people who you feel aren't the best for you in order to make room for someone who will help you grow better. Both aren't fun, but the "friend" option is… Continue reading If Your Not the One for Me Why do I Hate the Idea of Being Free/Why Have We Been Through What We Have Been Through 

To Be in Love With Someone Who Could Never Love You

Have you ever been in a relationship or just a friendship where you felt like they were your everything and you were just 'something' to them... at best?  Or where you can't be with them because of dumb or made up reason and you find yourself always having to contain your feelings/emotions for them because… Continue reading To Be in Love With Someone Who Could Never Love You

Hands Roam, I Turned Him to Gold/Get Drunk on the Good Life/Smoke a Little Weed on the Couch

In grade 11, my parents made the mistake of trusting me home alone for the weekend. They were taking a vacation alone (good for them) and for some reason felt I was mature enough to handle the house on my own. Oh for sure I was... I just choose not to make the best decisions… Continue reading Hands Roam, I Turned Him to Gold/Get Drunk on the Good Life/Smoke a Little Weed on the Couch

Are You Afraid of Being Alone Cause I am, I’m Lost Without You

Would I be okay alone? This question has crossed my mind too much recently, and to answer, of course I would be okay. But I wouldn't thrive. You see even when you are in a relationship, you are destined to be alone at some points in your life. Most in fact, but it's the knowledge… Continue reading Are You Afraid of Being Alone Cause I am, I’m Lost Without You

You’re All I See, Our Love’s a Monster with 2 Heads and 1 Heartbeat, We Just Got Caught up in the Moment

So, I told K I couldn't do "it" (more about "it" here: Flaws On the Table, I Don’t Feel Insecure). At least I'm pretty sure I told him... I was high while on the phone, since I knew I couldn't talk about it "on my own".  This was something I honestly would've considered if K and I… Continue reading You’re All I See, Our Love’s a Monster with 2 Heads and 1 Heartbeat, We Just Got Caught up in the Moment

Flaws On the Table, I Don’t Feel Insecure

Today I have to write just to get out of my head. Last night K called again, and somewhere during folding laundry and watching the hockey game, he threw out this... "offer" or "suggestion" shall we call it. To paraphrase, he brought up how I was considering a boob job among other things, and said… Continue reading Flaws On the Table, I Don’t Feel Insecure

No Matter What I Do, I’m No Good Without You 

Ahhhh, W. Many of you have asked me about W, and what happened to such a nice guy... why I let him get away. The fact is I never let him go, he was taken from me. We met one night while I was out dancing with the girls after work. It was an impromptu… Continue reading No Matter What I Do, I’m No Good Without You 

I Don’t Ever Wanna Feel Like I Did That Day, Take Me to the Place I Love, Take Me All the Way

When I was 19, my body was used for the first time in ways that changed me forever. I was really good friends with this one couple A and M.  We worked together, we went out every weekend together partying. I was even planning on moving in with the girl A in a few weeks… Continue reading I Don’t Ever Wanna Feel Like I Did That Day, Take Me to the Place I Love, Take Me All the Way