Figures, I Gave You Ride Or Die And You Gave Me Games/Love Figures I Gave You All And You Gave Me Shit

I've never felt so outright disrespected probably ever, at least that I can remember. W? He was killed. E? Never knew what he was doing. But this? This is K actively being... well just awful. So the mess with K? Well I've been working behind the scene trying to get word to him. Making sure… Continue reading Figures, I Gave You Ride Or Die And You Gave Me Games/Love Figures I Gave You All And You Gave Me Shit

Am I Out Of My Mind? If You Only Knew The Bad Things I Like Don’t Think That I Can Explain It. What Can I Say, It’s Complicated

So I've been in and out of touch with K since he first got re-arrested. I'm sorry I don't remember where I left off with this story so if I repeat myself or miss a whole chunk (hopefully not) please forgive me.  The last time I heard from him was Monday when he called again… Continue reading Am I Out Of My Mind? If You Only Knew The Bad Things I Like Don’t Think That I Can Explain It. What Can I Say, It’s Complicated

If I Got Locked Away And We Lost it All Today Tell Me Honestly, Would You Still Love Me The Same?

He called.  Finally. Right in the middle of my Canada Day family gathering with everyone over at my place. On a line where I could barely hear anything, but it didn't matter because he called.  So I can put to rest some imaginary situations my very active mind had thought up in the last few… Continue reading If I Got Locked Away And We Lost it All Today Tell Me Honestly, Would You Still Love Me The Same?

Where Did I Go Wrong I Would Have Stayed Up With You All Night Had I Known How to Save a Life

I fucken messed up. Majorly. Not just something simple that I could fix with an apology. But I messed up someone's everyday living. I didn't tell the whole story about last Friday with K and I. Yes, K came over and told me he loved me. Yes, he said no strings attached. Yes, the sex… Continue reading Where Did I Go Wrong I Would Have Stayed Up With You All Night Had I Known How to Save a Life

I’m Not a Pawn for You to Play in Your Fucking Game I’ve Got Dignity and a Dream That I Want to Achieve/All I Hear are Your Empty Promises

A while back I watched a show and the episode was titled Pros Vs. Cons and when I saw that, I literally laughed out loud.  It summed up my life in so many ways so perfectly. Yes, I am the queen of pro/con lists... whenever faced with an issue I think out all the good… Continue reading I’m Not a Pawn for You to Play in Your Fucking Game I’ve Got Dignity and a Dream That I Want to Achieve/All I Hear are Your Empty Promises

I Remember All the Feelings and the Day They Stopped

Last summer, after I bought my own house (Yeah me!), I fell back into old habits (Boo me). Like they say, old habits die hard. I hadn't slept with anyone since I had left E almost 2.5 years ago, since I had more important things to focus on.  So I was just really wanting that feeling of someone else… Continue reading I Remember All the Feelings and the Day They Stopped