So thanks to E constantly delaying the divorce, today is officially my eight year wedding anniversary. And I've spent 3.5 of those years trying to put E in my past. It's a work in progress. August 7th, 2009. The seventh day, of the eighth month, of the ninth year. E didn't care when we got… Continue reading I Never Lose Nothing But Damn I Done Had It I Ain’t Never Strike Out They Can’t Average What I Batted No
With little E's birthday yesterday and Z's coming up next week, it's really been hitting a chord I didn't even know I had. I want another baby. My kids are growing up and soon I'll have a 4 & 7 year old in my house and I won't even be able to pretend I have… Continue reading I’ll Take A Breath, I’ll Take Her By My Side We Stand In Awe, We’ve Created Life
Today is little E's 7th birthday. And I have so many things I've been wanting to post about, but decided to write about the day he was born. Because that's a story of its own! My pregnancy with little E went great. Absolutely no morning sickness, none of the uncomfortable sleeping at night, just a… Continue reading Happy Birthday To You Happy Birthday Dear Little E, Happy Birthday To You.
As we were preparing to get married, E shared a "tradition" from back home that he wanted us to partake in. This might be difficult to explain as it's regarding names and I try to avoid them, as well as the fact that the "tradition" turned out to be 100% fake, and we did something… Continue reading Wake Me Up When It’s All Over. When I’m Wiser And I’m Older.
So I've been in and out of touch with K since he first got re-arrested. I'm sorry I don't remember where I left off with this story so if I repeat myself or miss a whole chunk (hopefully not) please forgive me. The last time I heard from him was Monday when he called again… Continue reading Am I Out Of My Mind? If You Only Knew The Bad Things I Like Don’t Think That I Can Explain It. What Can I Say, It’s Complicated
After W was killed, months had passed since the funeral and I had had multiple conversations with myself about "moving on". One week I particular I found my thoughts constantly dwelling on things like 'was I ready', and if I was how would I even meet someone new?!? I no longer went to the club/pub/bars,… Continue reading Love in a Thousand Different Flavours I Wish That I Could Taste Them all Tonight No, I Ain’t Got No Dinner Plans
He called. Finally. Right in the middle of my Canada Day family gathering with everyone over at my place. On a line where I could barely hear anything, but it didn't matter because he called. So I can put to rest some imaginary situations my very active mind had thought up in the last few… Continue reading If I Got Locked Away And We Lost it All Today Tell Me Honestly, Would You Still Love Me The Same?
Nothing. They say no news is good news, but that's the biggest pile of shit ever. It's only been like just over 48 hours, so I'm trying to be patient, but I guess it's not a strong point of mine. I started off my day yesterday researching where to even start looking for where to… Continue reading I’m at a Payphone Trying to Call Home All of My Change I Spent on You/Baby it’s All Wrong Where are the Plans We Made for Two
So I took the kids to the park yesterday and as Z went off on the slide, little E and I had our "conversation" The whole "why doesn't dad live with us" question that he had asked me earlier in the day... I thought I had mentally prepped my answer, thought it through, and I… Continue reading Mama She has Taught Me Well Told Me When I Was Young Son Your Life’s an Open Book Don’t Close it ‘Fore it’s Done
This post is just some odds and ends about everything that's been happening lately. I just don't feel like going to deep into anything because life has been really handing it to me this week, but have I have a lot of quick updates I'd like to share. My Grandma apparently specified that all the… Continue reading By Now You Should’ve Somehow Realized What You Gotta do I Don’t Believe that Anybody Feels the Way I Do About You Now