Hands Roam, I Turned Him to Gold/Get Drunk on the Good Life/Smoke a Little Weed on the Couch

In grade 11, my parents made the mistake of trusting me home alone for the weekend. They were taking a vacation alone (good for them) and for some reason felt I was mature enough to handle the house on my own. Oh for sure I was... I just choose not to make the best decisions… Continue reading Hands Roam, I Turned Him to Gold/Get Drunk on the Good Life/Smoke a Little Weed on the Couch

Nobody Said It Was Easy. No One Ever Said It Would Be This Hard

I'd like to say that once I got back to Canada things got better fast. But that would be a complete lie. It was hard. There were so many stressful factors I didn't even consider when thinking the whole "leave E" thing through. My parents let us stay with them for which I am so… Continue reading Nobody Said It Was Easy. No One Ever Said It Would Be This Hard

We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together

So today I was back at the airport for the first time since flying back from Kenya 3 years ago. I felt like a deja vu kinda thing happening. I had to head out there for work to meet some of the guys we'd recruited for work and it was just a causal meet and… Continue reading We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together

Tell the World I’m Coming… Home

I booked flights for about 10 days out. They were the right combination of cheapest and nearest in date. Well they weren't cheap, but I just wanted out of there ASAP. Then, after I booked the flights and paid, I sent an email to my mom letting her know our itinerary and just an update… Continue reading Tell the World I’m Coming… Home

Should I Stay Or Should I Go Now

I spent the next couple of days in what can only be described as a fog. I was there. I was alive. But I was definitely not thinking clearly. Everything was blurry. Fuzzy. I couldn't concentrate on any of the mundane day to day things that needed to be done. The kids needed to be… Continue reading Should I Stay Or Should I Go Now

Gimme All Your Money, All Your Hugs and Kisses too

While living outside of Kakamega, Kenya, it seemed more difficult for E to adjust then for myself. New things don't scare me much, and I'm always up for talking to new people and having new experiences. But for E, what we didn't understand at the time (about 2013-2014) was that his schizophrenic tendencies were becoming… Continue reading Gimme All Your Money, All Your Hugs and Kisses too

Honeymoon, I Think…

I guess I should make you guys aware that that was not the first time I had been raped. By E, yes. But in my life, no. I'll save that story for another day, but just for you to understand that it was probably a big part of the reason I ended up settling for… Continue reading Honeymoon, I Think…

The Wedding of My Dreams. My Worst Nightmare 

E didn't want anything to do in planning the wedding. My mom on the other hand... She wanted to be involved way to much. I'm a fairly easy going person. I don't like to stir up trouble. And my mom was getting so excited about this whole wedding thing that I didn't want to say… Continue reading The Wedding of My Dreams. My Worst Nightmare 

House Warming. It was Cold as Fuck

After we'd been married about two months, I wanted to throw a little house warming/ gathering party at our new place. It would be the first time we'd had a group over and I thought it'd be fun. I asked E if he was okay with the idea and he said sure. I asked him… Continue reading House Warming. It was Cold as Fuck

We Found Love in a Hopeless Place

I got married at 21. But that wasn’t my first mistake. Now don’t get me wrong, I think you can find your true love at any age… but I had not found it. I was marrying because I had found someone, anyone who would have me. But neither of us knew what we were doing… Continue reading We Found Love in a Hopeless Place