Get It On, Get It On’Cause Tonight Is The NightWhen 2 Become 1

It’s just so much. I can tell you right here and now I don’t have the words to describe properly what I want to say, but I’ll start with; it’s just so much. So many feelings, to many emotions. Not necessarily good emotions either. Hate, sorrow, anger, all mixed in in such large amounts. To …

And All We Wanna Do Is Get By Today Heyyy We’re Gonna Have A Good Day And Ain’t Nobody Gotta Cry Today

I cut myself short about my day yesterday. Probably because I was so concerned about the rat and couldn't think straight. But what I also did was call a few places looking to get the kids and I in for counselling. I've realized that I've been doing so much damage to them by freaking out …

Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day

So. I'm having a terrible horrible no good very bad day 🙃. I woke up on the WRONG side of the bed this morning and for some reason everything my kids did was just extra annoying and I could not keep my shit together and be kind or patient with them in anyway shape or …

I Know You’re Built To Love, But Broken Now, So Just Try, Yeah I know You’re Chokin’ On Your Fears

So never in my wildest dreams did I expect this to happen. We went to get the mail yesterday and there were a few small packages in it, one for each of the kids and myself. From E. Not gonna lie at first I was like wtf? For a quick instant I was like is …

So Here’s To New Beginnings And Here’s To Breaking Free Let’s Chase A New Horizon, Chase Who We’re Meant To Be

So we did it. In such a new way we achieved both a beginning and an end. At least from my perspective. Each new chance at this has been expanding my mind to new levels. Even that phrase as such is misleading now. My mind. Because once you reach this level of knowledge, you can …

Eventually If It Was Meant To Be, Then It Would Be ‘Cause We Related, Physically And Mentally / Boy, I Tell You, I Miss Her

Today I had another honest conversation with my kids. I asked them how they would feel if they never had a 'dad'. Like if we just always remained a family of three. How pretty much they've always known it. I told them I've come to the realization that for myself, men cause me a distraction, …

You’re Just Like Me, You’re Out Your Mind I Know It’s Strange, We’re Both The Crazy Kind You’re Tellin’ Me That I’m Insane

How deeply have you considered how you came to be. When you truly think on it, on how consciousness works, and how it started, you must come to the conclusions hat we have one consciousness. Which leads to the terrifying and dangerous yet peaceful thought that we all are one. Not only in consciousness, but …

Welcome To Existence Everyone’s Here / Everybody’s Watching You Now Everybody Waits For You Now What Happens Next?

Today an ad popped up on my Instagram about preparing wills. This is something I have been purposefully avoiding my entire life. Not because I'm afraid to die because of death and all that jazz, but because in my will, I will undoubtedly have to name a Guardian for my kids. And I have no …

I Wish I Could Be Every Little Thing You Wanted All The Time

Last night Z nearly broke my heart. I was washing her hair, which could be considered a full time job, although we do it on average once a week if I've had enough coffee and sleep, when she made the comment that she doesn't like her hair and wished it was like all her friends …

I’m Not Your Gumdrop, ‘Cause I Walk All Alone I Got My Tough, Tough Power And I Call This Body My Home

Real quick personal post.... hahaha which of my posts aren't personal, this whole blog is my life story lol. But anyways quick is my point. I've made a semi dedicated goal (let's get real, all my goals are half assed, but let's see where this one gets me) to get more in shape. Not a …