I Never Lose Nothing But Damn I Done Had It I Ain’t Never Strike Out They Can’t Average What I Batted No

So thanks to E constantly delaying the divorce, today is officially my eight year wedding anniversary. And I've spent 3.5 of those years trying to put E in my past. It's a work in progress. August 7th, 2009. The seventh day, of the eighth month, of the ninth year. E didn't care when we got… Continue reading I Never Lose Nothing But Damn I Done Had It I Ain’t Never Strike Out They Can’t Average What I Batted No

Happy Birthday To You Happy Birthday Dear Little E, Happy Birthday To You.

Today is little E's 7th birthday. And I have so many things I've been wanting to post about, but decided to write about the day he was born. Because that's a story of its own! My pregnancy with little E went great. Absolutely no morning sickness, none of the uncomfortable sleeping at night, just a… Continue reading Happy Birthday To You Happy Birthday Dear Little E, Happy Birthday To You.

She’s All Through, Life’s Not Blowing Her Kisses Thanks To You

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=CbaxKcxtPY4Woooooow. I had an interesting night to say the least lol. It started Friday night when I had my 4 nieces sleepover and it was chaotic with 6 kids in my little townhouse (that's being kind). Then I drove them the half hour - 45 minutes back to their house during which we played a… Continue reading She’s All Through, Life’s Not Blowing Her Kisses Thanks To You

Please Don’t Look At Me With Those Eyes Please Don’t Hint That Your Capable Of Lies I Dread The Thought Of Our Very First Kiss

Maybe my tape measure is faulty, because I can think of no other logical explanation for how every man I've recently met recently whose profile said they were 6 feet plus, turned out near my height or as was the case last night, MUCH shorter. I'm 5'9, unless, like I said, every tool I've ever… Continue reading Please Don’t Look At Me With Those Eyes Please Don’t Hint That Your Capable Of Lies I Dread The Thought Of Our Very First Kiss

I am Just a Troubled Soul Who’s Weighted to the Ground. Give Me the Strength to Lay this Burden Down

So I went for it. Today is officially day one of my new "lifestyle" I stopped pussyfooting around regarding my weight loss and signed up for Jenny Craig. Now don't laugh (I used to kinda inwardly laugh at people who choose this option, but hear me out) I choose it because after making my standard… Continue reading I am Just a Troubled Soul Who’s Weighted to the Ground. Give Me the Strength to Lay this Burden Down

Nobody Said It Was Easy. No One Ever Said It Would Be This Hard

I'd like to say that once I got back to Canada things got better fast. But that would be a complete lie. It was hard. There were so many stressful factors I didn't even consider when thinking the whole "leave E" thing through. My parents let us stay with them for which I am so… Continue reading Nobody Said It Was Easy. No One Ever Said It Would Be This Hard

We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together

So today I was back at the airport for the first time since flying back from Kenya 3 years ago. I felt like a deja vu kinda thing happening. I had to head out there for work to meet some of the guys we'd recruited for work and it was just a causal meet and… Continue reading We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together

Tell the World I’m Coming… Home

I booked flights for about 10 days out. They were the right combination of cheapest and nearest in date. Well they weren't cheap, but I just wanted out of there ASAP. Then, after I booked the flights and paid, I sent an email to my mom letting her know our itinerary and just an update… Continue reading Tell the World I’m Coming… Home

Should I Stay Or Should I Go Now

I spent the next couple of days in what can only be described as a fog. I was there. I was alive. But I was definitely not thinking clearly. Everything was blurry. Fuzzy. I couldn't concentrate on any of the mundane day to day things that needed to be done. The kids needed to be… Continue reading Should I Stay Or Should I Go Now

If the Ring Fits

E had big hands. Huge hands. Like it was ridiculous. We went multiple times to different jewellery stores looking for the perfect wedding ring for him. I asked him so many questions about what he would like, what did he want it to look like, how big, what style. I really wanted him to like… Continue reading If the Ring Fits